I can't believe I enter the online dating world! In my last post I said I didn't believe in it but after a lot of friends giving me advices and sharing their experiences with me, I decided to give it a shot. I still feel as if I were playing with faith or destiny, for me it's not romantic but I'm trying to leave my comfort zone and push myself to be a little more outgoing.

I created my profile last thursday, had a lot of messages the next morning. Some just said Hey, others asked for my name or told me I had a pretty smile or an interesting profile. I chose to pay attention to four, two were ok not that interesting. One of them is really my type, studies the same thing I studied, same age, an artist, really cute. Asked me to add him on facebook, so I did. On Saturday he asked me out for coffee, he picked me up in the train station and we spend like an hour talking about his projects and mine, what we wanted to be "when we grow up". He was feeling kind of sick, he started sneezing a lot so I told him he should go home and rest. He took me home, didn't get out the car. We exchanged numbers, he said I could text him or call him anytime. I said I had a nice time and left.

About 20 minutes after he left me home, he texted: Hey it was nice to meet you, sorry I was sick. I said the same and wished him luck with one of his projects we talked about, said thank you and that was it.

The same Saturday, I kept on writing with another guy, his first message said: I love Supernatural! I love laughing at horror movies but I wouldn't mind watching them with you! I would love the opportunity to get to know you better. So I gave him the opportunity because he basically likes everything I like. He asked about my plans that night, said I had non so he told me: If you are interested I would be down for a movie or coffee or dessert. Do something to keep warm! :-).

I wrote: well, yeah why not haha do you like something in the movies right now?. OMG and he picked me up, we went to the movies, then had a really late dinner and took me home like at 2 am. We talked a lot, about almost everything in our lives, he showed me pictures of his entire family and dog. He went to Law School, he recently presented the bar exam, which if he passes would be a step for him to get his license to be an attorney. He also volunteers as a firefighter and he tutors kids in school.

He smoothly put his arm around me in the movies, he payed for the movies and for dinner too. He opened every door for me, he was a gentlemen. He has a really REALLY loud laughter and he warned me about it. He talked a lot about the future, and he seems to be looking for something serious but I'm not sure if I want that. I'm in an exchange program, that ends in May 2014, he joked about him make me have a reason not to go and made joke about a fiancée VISA. We exchanged number and add each other on facebook. I had a nice time but I'm was not that convince about him, at the end of the date I just hugged him. He said we wished he could see me again and that he had a really good time.

He texted me: Home, thanks for tonight :) Sweet dreams. I said: Thank you! You too. Next morning, he texted me Good Morning and it's been like that since that day. Yesterday, he message me on facebook about liking my profile pic and he asked me: so when shall I see you again?. 

I'm really anxious about this, I told him I had plans the entire week, so he said:  Maybe we can do something Saturday?. I said yes but didn't actually talked about where to go or what to do. Today, I decided to text Good Morning! He texted back: Good Morning Karen! told me to have a nice day and to stay beautiful.

I haven't heard anything from the first guy, I really liked him but I guess he didn't like me. So, I can't help but wonder Why does this keep happening to me? The one that I really like is not interested and the one I don't like that much, is?

It's been forever since my last relationship, I had been here for 10 months and before getting here I thought I had something going but he stopped writing 4 months ago, he occasionally likes my stuff but he says nothing to me. I saw a picture of him kissing his old girlfriend, I guess they're back now. Yesterday, I decided I was not going to be like him and I was going to send him a message about me dating here (don't ask me why, I know he doesn't deserve it) but I discovered he delete his facebook account so I'm so ANGRY right now. 

I'm afraid I'm saying yes to this other guy just because of him. I've known this guy for about 7 years, we obviously were friends until 2 years ago, I guess we realized our relationship had torn into something else. Or so I thought. I still feel when something good, bad or just something happens I want to tell him right away, because he was my friend despite everything!!!! 

Dating is weird!!! I want to stop being forever alone but it's hard and complicated and dramatic and I hate drama!!