I recently received a message from my ex The Substitute. Apparently he thought of me when listening to the latest album by a band I used to be obsessed with around the time I met him. I'll admit, I was flattered he remembered me but I'm not sure how I feel about him anymore.
The break up went like this:
I told him I didn't feel he was committed to me - that I was just some activity partner that he goes out with and has sex with. He responded by saying his life is too unstable with him not having a full-time job that he can't provide commitment or marriage to me. I said I didn't care about marriage at that moment or about what he has to offer me in the future but that I needed to know that in the present he could offer me love. I told him I can't give my heart to someone who is so reserved and protective of their heart and not willing to be vulnerable with me.
He was a passionate lover but lacked the passion to make me feel desired. I wanted so badly for him to be the one but it didn't seem like he was strong enough to be my man at the time.
Fast forward a year and he's back in my life. Did he suddenly realize what a great catch I was? Does he suddenly have the stability he thinks he needs in order to be in a relationship? Do I even want to give him another chance, especially since meeting some other really cool, interesting people? I just don't know...