I gave up on the whole online dating thing and have been trying to meet people in the real word but I occasionally go on this dating site just to check out the sexy selection of men. I randomly came across this Creative Writer and thought he was cute so I rated him highly but wasn't going to waste my time sending him a message just because I thought he was cute and interesting.

I assume the site lets you know when someone rates you highly or is interested in you, so that's probably how I got his attention. He wrote a really lengthy message and incorporated his questions based on the information I provided on my profile. I appreciated the effort he took to actually read my profile, so I wrote back. 

We were like pen pals for the following days - getting to know each other until finally he said I was someone worth getting to know, so I gave him my number.

He started off sending me some of his creative writing via txt message and I've shared some of the things I've written. I'm also a pretty creative person but it's more of a hobby for me so it was really nice meeting someone whom I admire and feel inspired by.

I feel like we have a really great chemistry when it comes to communicating and we share similar thoughts and views on the world but part of me doesn't want to get overly excited about him because I don't want to get hurt. It seems like previous relationships always started with this intense attraction and never ended up working. It's as if the initial attraction blinded me from seeing that we just weren't compatible.

So I mentioned in another entry that I met up with him and his friend. I don't understand why I felt more attracted to his friend who doesn't even fit my type. Maybe it's a defense? It's so convenient for me to like someone that I can't have or someone who lives too far away to be able to hurt me.

I know I really like Creative Writer as a person and he's totally crushable but I'm reluctant to develop feelings for him when I don't know how good of a match he is for me. I guess only time will tell...